I love you ..

The hardest thing I ever had to do was leave the person I love. I loved him with all my heart, i never knew i was even capable of loving a human that much. I didnt even know i was in love untill i was so deep in my love that i got blind. I loved untill i was just living for him. For a while we thought the world was created just so that we'd meet and fall in love. For some reason this world that was created just for us is the same world that broke us apart and we had no choice but to do so. Being away from him after three years still kills me. I literally feel dead inside sometimes. I feel nothing after him. i care about nothing. it was as if i was made of two parts,, me and him and half of me does not exist anymore. i dont know if i can still make it and go on without him. i wish that id never loved because its so much harder than what we are told or seen. nobody has ever told me that id cry more than id smile,nobody told me that one smile from ur loved one is worth thousands of those tears. i want nothing but to be with him. i want to leave this whole world and dream about him. you may not understand me.. and others may know exactly what im talking about, but believe me no matter what happens after.. youre never the same again..